The Darkness

Where are those days?
when I wandered merrily,
without this eternal frown..
Confident I ll make it big oneday..

Where has it gone?
Clarity of mind,purity of thoughts,
Passion to perform,
And strength to withstand..

Why am I afraid
to dream of a tommorrow,
or to look back on yesterday?
To think of what went wrong
or how to make it right..

Days are worthless,
Life is aimless,
Pain is searing,
Existence is tiring..

I want a mind..
A beautiful mind
which thinks of
no yesterday,
no tommorrow,
no friend,
no foe,
no work,
no goals,
no success,
no failure..

A mind which is at peace,
not tormenting me,
making my days longer,
and my nights restless..
A mind which understands me,
which enjoys my company..

May this insanity vanish..
May my insomnia end..
May the haunting stop..
May my sighs blow off the candle..
At least,
I ll not be frightened of the shadows...